Good Morning

Oh, like I have time to make this kind of post! But I want to, buhaaa ><

Uhm. Yeah. Haha. I continuously doing some errors these days. I completely think that, "isn't anything I can do rightly?" Oh, but, I swept those thought as soon as it come. I'm not a high-school student so I ashamed to have those kind of thought.
All I can do is do with all my best.

You know, sometimes I wonder if I take the right way. I want to do this. But when things go bad, I don't want it. Woah, so childish. The only one thing, I can take it whatever it takes: Drawing. I'd love to draw until the day I cant move my fingers again. I love to draw, so much, till I won't mind if someone tell me that my draw is suck. I just love to draw. No one can't stop me. Haha, that's how much I love you xDD

It's been a long time since I draw manually, so, yesterday, I drew and drew while my lecturer give lecture. Haha, just a bit. But I felt good. I'd love to draw until the day I can't move my fingers again.
I don't care about the result. I just love to draw. So much. 

Sukima Switch - Doushite Toaster Lyric + Translation

song: sukima switch, music: sukima switch

doushita? kowarete shimatta?? mou pan ga yakenai
toosutaa kimi to no yuiitsu no tsunagari datta noni

futari de katta mono ga hitotsu hitotsu kie
saigo ni nokotta no ga koitsu datta noni

mou ichido dake yakou
sorede moshi dame dattara
akiramete to kimi ga itteru koto ni shiyou

sou sa ichi nen chikaku sugiteru no dakara
mou iikagen tsugi no koto ni mo me o mukere ba ii

sonna fuu ni omottatte kekkyoku sonomama
kowarete ku mono ga attatte naosa
zu sonomama

sorosoro yakeru koro da
naka o miru no ga kowai na
saigo no shirase mitai de
sonomama ni shitokou ka naa

sorosoro yakeru koro da
naka o miru no ga kowai na
demo kimeta toori ni shinai to,
mae ni susume naku natte shimau kara

kono mama,
suteru no mo,
ii ka naa?


Terjemahan

Ada apa denganmu, pemanggang roti?
Kenapa? Apa rusak?
Dia tidak mau memanggang roti lagi.
Pemanggang roti ini adalah satu-satunya penghubungku denganmu.

Hal yang kita beli bersama
Telah menghilang satu per satu
Dan pada akhirnya, hanya inilah yang tersisa.

Akan kucoba memanggang roti sekali lagi saja.
Dan jika tidak berhasil,
Aku akan menyerah soal dirimu dan melakukan seperti yang kau katakan.

Benar juga.
Kini hampir setahun telah berlalu.
Sudah cukup,
Aku bisa mengalihkan perhatianku pada masa depan.
Kupikir sih begitu.
Tapi pada akhirnya, disinilah aku.
Meskipun rusak, tapi aku disini, tidak memperbaikinya.

Hanya soal waktu dia akan memanggang.
Menakutkan, melihatnya.
Selagi aku menunggu untuk melihat hasilnya,
Kurasa aku akan terus seperti ini.
Hanya soal waktu dia akan memanggang.
Menakutkan, melihatnya.
Tapi jika aku tidak melakukan seperti yang telah kuputuskan,
aku akan terus mengambang tanpa bisa move on.

Seperti ini,
dan membuang beberapa hal,
harusnya tidak apa-apa kan?

Aaah, sabishii naaa

Ano ne, this kind of feeling really got me on these days. Like a cycle, it's going over me again. Yep, those "MELANCHOLY FEELING".

When I went home from university on mid day, when I walked alone, or sitting quietly on my bus, and look trough the window, these melancholy feeling hit me more. A bit, but intensely. Aaah, lonely. In this quiet situations (when i just sitting on my bus, or walk home quietly in the mid day, or waiting for my bus), somehow I found that I don't know if there's something that I can anticipate. I don't really know what I want to do. Somehow, I want to do something, something that I always do when I'm still teenager. Hahaha, what's that? Searching for "senpai" fragment.

Oh, yeah, these "senpai" things again, huh?
Can't be helped cause he's a part of my precious memories as a teenager. Haha. Still sounds gross if I said those words. Well, I'm old now :p

The best thing about being a secret admirer is: You hope for that fellow, but if he/she didn't realise you, you won't think about it too much. Because, from the start, you thought that, "just looking from far is good enough, as long as I can love him as much as I want. It won't feel awkward, because he didn't know about me. I won't rejected, because I'll never approach my feeling in front of him."

But that's what they called as "cinta sendiri" kan?

Cinta sendiri itu... kegirangan sendiri, sedih sendiri, berbunga-bunga sendiri...
nanka.. sabishii na?

Haha. Well, it's been my entertainment in my junior high school, as long as I can remember:

- What kind of manga he borrowed today?
- Seeing his smiling face is the best thing of my junior high school days
- I even wrote on my diary, that his smile has energy like a 1.000.000 joule energy sword.
- I hate spoiler, but if he's the one who spoil it, I won't mind it, ever.
- God, if I go to books rental on free day, and met him by coincidence, may I refer it as a 'fate'?

Haha, those kind of things really happen on my junior high school life. You know, I'm a cheerful girl, right?
Very Optimist!

Of course, when I re-read my diary, I think it's gross to say all those things about your secret love. Still it's a good memory. Haha. Dunno where's my senpai right now. When he go to another island, I lost my track of him. Completely.

Obsession and love. Now I can separate it clearly.
Ahaha, what am I blabbering about? So useless! Ja ne.